I’m planning some big changes this year.

One of them is that I’ll be moving. I’m not sure if I’ll be buying, or renting a little longer, but it’s time to do it. Thankfully, it’s not happening until late this year, so I don’t have to start packing today! Still, it’s running my brain around like a lost ferret.I am already looking forward, to my near future. I’ve started sorting through boxes I’ve had in my closet for years. I’m deciding what to keep, what to pass to the kids, and what to get rid of. It’s funny how we put things away for years on end, but they’re things we have an attachment to, so we keep them.

There’s always a little looking backward when you start making plans for change, isn’t there?

I have some amazing memories in this apartment. This is where Thot Con was held. This is where I watched my grandson learn to scoot, then crawl, then walk. This is where I had friends over on weekends to watch shows together.

Still, it’s time. I’ve halted all decorating plans – no point in doing that when I’m going to be somewhere else soon. I’m window shopping for a new desk because I want a larger one and I’ll have a second bedroom to use for an office when I move. I’m thinking about where I might like to buy a home, and what I’d want in one.

There’s a bit of internal resistance. I don’t truly enjoy making big changes. I’m a little lazy that way. Put me somewhere and as long as my needs are met, I’m not likely to change location. I think we all have a bit of that in us though. At least it’s just the resistance to change and not full-on dread, right?

It’s just strange to look around myself and know, all the way down, this place won’t be my home much longer. I’ve been here for 5 or 6 yrs. I hadn’t seriously contemplated the day I’d leave. It was too far off to worry about.

Well, whether I find a place to buy (which I’m not sure of because the housing market is insane) or hold off for a year or two, at least the decision is made and I have time to settle into the idea. I also have time to pick somewhere I’ll be comfortable for another few years if I do end up renting.